Fearlessly Me

Fearless is not a word that always described me. In fact, as a little girl and all the way through my 20’s I was the complete opposite. I was super timid, I lacked courage for everything, I was easily influenced, and controlled. I went to church and was very involved. I was the worship leader, but the trait of being fearless was not at all in me or my radar. People that know me are blown away when I tell them just how timid and introverted, I was. They see me now and can’t fathom me being a shy, quiet girl. I must confess that I’m so glad I am not that girl anymore. But I must also confess that I was that girl because although I went to church and did all the things a person does at church, I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus. My relationship with Him was replaced by a relationship with church. And let me tell you something girl, a relationship with church doesn’t make your fearless, it makes you fearful.

Through many hard challenges in my life, as I entered my 30’s and up until today, I made the decision to be fearless. But fearlessness didn’t just show up in me because I said it. That was just the beginning. Fearlessness was something I had to choose every day. It is something I had to ask God for help with. It is something that I had to develop in me over many years by deciding to be in a committed relationship with Jesus. Has it been easy? Absolutely not! To be fearless has been one of the hardest things I have had to work on in my life because my past and all the things that entail it were so ugly and difficult.

As I sit here writing this blog for you, I am so nervous about it, but I know that this is what God has called me to do, and so I will do it and be fearless about it despite my past. You see I have learned that my past doesn’t dictate my present or future. My past was oh so hard, so terrible, full of drama, lies, deceptions, and I could go on and on. But I allowed God to step in and begin a transformation process in my life that is still at work today. I didn’t want to be the timid girl anymore that was easily influenced. I didn’t want to be the woman I was when I had a relationship with church and ministry instead of God. I didn’t want to be the woman anymore that lied, cheated, was selfish, hurt others, and so much more. I wanted to be a fearless woman transformed by God. I didn’t want to live by my rules anymore, they didn’t work. All my rules and my control brought me was destruction, rejection, loneliness, strife, frustration, lack of sleep, anxiety, depression, hate, and anger. You see, the enemy never tells you the terrible circumstances you will face if you dive into temptation. He paints a pretty picture of the temptation and then leaves you to hang yourself with it. And that was my life for a while. I left church, I walked away from God and leaped into temptation. I didn’t care what anyone had to say. And you might say, well girl that’s fearless, and yes, it is, but not the kind that you find peace or joy in. That type of fearlessness left me empty, with a broken family, hurt children, destroyed friendships, and more importantly without God. I needed Him desperately and so I took my first fearless step, and I ran back to Him. I was broken, shattered, emotionally destroyed, but He took me back and made me His. Was I scared to run back to Jesus, the One I had sinned against? Absolutely! I was terrified! But I knew that He was my only hope. I knew He was my only salvation and my only way out of the mess I had created in myself. But I made that fearless decision and haven’t looked back since.

Being fearless doesn’t mean that you lack fear. To be fearless is to perhaps be afraid but you do it anyways. And that’s what I did. I felt the fear because it’s what the enemy wanted me to feel. He doesn’t want us to turn to God and find salvation in His Son and find freedom. But the truth is that through Jesus I found everything that I needed. The enemy was out to destroy my life, but Jesus was waiting to restore it. The restoration process hasn’t been an easy one. There have been countless consequences for my sin diving. But with God by my side, I have been able to get through some very difficult moments in my life. Why? Because I chose to be fearless and now instead of living a shy, introverted life, I live a fearless life because of the relationship I choose to have with Jesus daily. He is my fearless Savior and so I choose to be His fearless daughter.

It’s been almost 19 years since I ran back to God, and He forgave me and began His restoration process in me. But it also took almost that long, until about 5 months ago, for me to forgive myself completely. It took that long for me to stop being content in condemning myself daily because I figured it’s how I needed to live the rest of my life. God encountered me the month of September 2022 and confronted me to the fact that if He didn’t condemn me then why was I still carrying a burden that was no longer mine to carry. If the past was indeed the past, then why I was I still dwelling it in. The problem was that I continued carrying the heavy guilt of my past because I believed I deserved to carry it, that this was a part of my consequence. God had to remind me that His Son Jesus carried my guilt on the cross and that as soon as I repented of all that I had done he forgave me and took my guilt away. I was free and needed to live fearlessly and completely free. Only then could He launch me into the full purpose for my life.

Girls, I was hindering what God had for me because I believed I needed to carry my guilt. The enemy deceived me into thinking that this was what I needed to do. When God confronted me about this, I made the decision to let it all go. I went into the deepest part of my soul and surrendered it all to God once and for all. I want God to fulfill His entire purpose in me. I don’t want to hinder His plan for my life. Since that September I haven’t looked back. I have been pushing forward even more fearlessly because that’s the kind of women He is seeking. Maybe what you are holding back in surrendering is also hindering you from living out the purpose of God for your life. Don’t do what I did. Don’t waste any more precious time. Decide to live fearlessly for God! Run back to Him now, even if you are scared. He is waiting for you with open arms. He is more eager than you to see you walk in His freedom and in His fearlessness all the way to your purpose. I am here cheering you on! Don’t wait another second!!! Fearless woman you need to rise! This is your time! You were created with a great purpose. Yes, it will take work. Yes, it will take a lot of effort. But yes, with God YOU CAN DO IT! If He did it with me, He will do it with you! Be fearless today!

Besides this blog there are many scary things that God is launching me to do, and I intend on doing every single one, FEARLESSLY! I may be nervous and scared, but I know who my God is, and I know that He is by my side and so, I will do it afraid. I will be fearless because He deserves nothing less than that.

So many great things are coming, and I would love for you to stay connected with me. Soon I will be launching a podcast for women where I share more of my story and the stories of other fearless women. There is also a Fearless Woman, Rise conference coming very soon which I am so extremely excited about it. I will share all the new things on the website so make sure you are checking it regularly.

Ladies, it’s time to rise and be fearless!! Your creator is calling you!!

With Love,

Mimi